February or: Loosing Deluxe

Sorry for not posting the last time. But as you can see on the graphs, the luck didn´t turn around. And yes, I´ve done it: A whole month with only loosing days. Don´t know what to say anymore.

I´ll post you some Graphs and then what I think to do now...

Full Tilt $27-$60 STTs

Pokerstars $27-$60 STTs

Pokerstars $16 18man

Facts: -$6649;  all games; with an avg. BI of 29,66 (30) = -221 BI
          -$4992 (STTs); EV -$894(only STTs), with an avg BI of 37 = -134 BI, EV -24 BI = 110              BI under EV
          -$1657 (18man) with an avg. BI of 16$ = -103 BI


I think this shows all. Don´t wanna know where my EV at the 18mans is.

Now I don´t really know where my BR stands. I really don´t wanna know exactly. The Graphs are already pissing me off. I know. I know that I have something around 2,5k left..

So with this BR I can´t play the $16 18mans anymore and because I don´t wanna go down to the $6 (lol) I´ll have to play the $12 on FT again to maintain Iron man. Don´t know what will happen to my Supernove aim but at the moment I´m just pissed and don´t have much motivation for poker...

I have my first exam on March 18th and so I don´t have much time at the moment either. So I hope I´ll have more motivation in playing and blogging in future time.

I´ll end with my unbelievable HEM view for Pokerstars:

Can´t find any words...

to explain this situation...

I really don´t know what´s going on. It´s so hilarious. It´s so sick. After moving down to the 16´s I´ve dropped again 80 BI now.

I´ve lost about 70 % of my BR. From 10k down to about 3k. I won´t think of where I would be if I wouldn´t have moved down. Obv. broke, lal.

So the funny thing is, now everyone thinks I´m a fish when he looks at my graphs. Definitely fishy Graphs. Definitely loosing-player Graphs.

I´m down around 300-350 BI down now. I didn´t tilt. I reviewed all the time. I just don´t know what to do anymore.

For sure, there are other good regs who experience a huge downswing (just simplicity as an example). But they all have probably the BR and let say 500+ BI to go through. I had "only" (!!!) 300 BI and now moved down to limits.

It´s frustrating enough to loose so much money for which I will have to grind more than 6 months to get back probably. But it´s more frustrating to dropp 20 days in a row without one little winning day.

Oh wait, there is one winning day on Pokerstars.

I´m really depressed and frustrated. Don´t know what else to say. If someone has some advices that differ from "View your game"; "that´s simply variance"; "you must have big leaks"; "grind it out" then you´re welcome.