Can´t find any words...

to explain this situation...

I really don´t know what´s going on. It´s so hilarious. It´s so sick. After moving down to the 16´s I´ve dropped again 80 BI now.

I´ve lost about 70 % of my BR. From 10k down to about 3k. I won´t think of where I would be if I wouldn´t have moved down. Obv. broke, lal.

So the funny thing is, now everyone thinks I´m a fish when he looks at my graphs. Definitely fishy Graphs. Definitely loosing-player Graphs.

I´m down around 300-350 BI down now. I didn´t tilt. I reviewed all the time. I just don´t know what to do anymore.

For sure, there are other good regs who experience a huge downswing (just simplicity as an example). But they all have probably the BR and let say 500+ BI to go through. I had "only" (!!!) 300 BI and now moved down to limits.

It´s frustrating enough to loose so much money for which I will have to grind more than 6 months to get back probably. But it´s more frustrating to dropp 20 days in a row without one little winning day.

Oh wait, there is one winning day on Pokerstars.

I´m really depressed and frustrated. Don´t know what else to say. If someone has some advices that differ from "View your game"; "that´s simply variance"; "you must have big leaks"; "grind it out" then you´re welcome.

Some Adjustments

As you can see on my Sharkscope Graphs the Downswing didn´t want to end...

15 Days ago I was quite happy with having about 300 BI for my limit and riding on a upswing. Of course, I knew that there will be a (hard) downswing and I didn´t complain about the first 50 BI. But then things started to change..

No, I didn´t tilt. In my opinion I continued playing my A-Game. If you can call this A-Game after dropping 100 BI. I think there is always a little bit that makes your play not really better..

Anyway, I was meanwhile down to 150 BI and about 130 under EV. Just look at my last post, there you can see some Graphs. I don´t wanna post the whole downswing Graph, it just frustrats me. I dropped about 6k in the end which means about 200 BI and ran about 160 under EV. At the STT´s.
Although I knew that the variance gets higher and higher the more you move up in limits, I didn´t expect dropping so many...

Of course, dropping 200 BI isn´t really standard for a good reg at these limits. Although I knew that I´m not the best at my limit, I was sure that I´m a good winningplayer. I still think so, but at the moment the STT´s in this limit are really pissing me off.

Not only because of the many regs and so on but now it´s getting a mindset-thing. Dropping around 15+ BI every day make you going nuts.
Dropping more than 50% of your BR makes you going nuts.

So after 2 days getting off from poker I decided that I have to move down so that I don´t crush my whole BR.

I decided to play the $16 18mans and see what will come around. Of course, new regs, new adjustments to STT´s...but I think there´s no other way.

On Full Tilt I´ll play the $24-$36 to get the 500 points per day and to freeplay my $500 bonus. I don´t know if I play on Full Tilt afters this or if I switch completly to Pokerstars.

Ps: Thanks to my friend ICall w/Crap.

Some Thoughts

...to let you know how i run atm. You can choose wether it´s more sick to drop around 70 BI on Pokerstars and running in setups + suckouts or dropping 30 BI with a higher avg. Buy In and loosing nearly only against suckouts.

Well, furtunately I had so much BI for my limits. But know I´m over 4k down which means 100+ BI related to which BI you take. Now, of course, you say that this is not only bad luck and there have to be big leaks or some what.

What I think is, that I had a good upswing at the beginning of the year and that I´m in a BE stretch seen on this downswing...

I´m definitely sure that I beat this limit with a ROI that´s normal for a reg on this limit. I think i run pretty bad and atm and that this can only be balanced out by volume. Although I don´t give this much on the EV-line, it shows in such downswings that you´re really unlucky in the all in situations and motivations at least a little.

Stars (all games Feb.)

Full Tilt ($36-$60 Feb.)

Full Tilt($60, BI)

"Why do I run so bad?" - I think i dunno know...

Full Tilt Poker $33 + $3 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t120/t240 Blinds - 5 players - View hand 1167729

DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter



butot (UTG): t2350 9.79 BBs

DelfiNchik_BesT (CO): t4585 19.10 BBs

Hero (BTN): t1405 5.85 BBs

csn1 (SB): t3435 14.31 BBs

G_V_K (BB): t1725 7.19 BBs



Pre Flop: (t360) Hero is BTN with A A

butot raises to t2350 all in, DelfiNchik_BesT raises to t4585 all in, Hero calls t1405 all in, 2 folds
   
butot shows 4 4

DelfiNchik_BesT shows Q Q


hell yeah, I´m ahead after the flop!! 


Flop: (t6465) A 3 4 (3 players - 3 are all in)


NUTZZ!! I won´t lose this time, no one has two diamonds...only runner runner can beat me!




ohh wait...I´ve forgotten something...


Turn: (t6465) 4 (3 players - 3 are all in)



I HATE POKER.


River: (t6465) 8 (3 players - 3 are all in)




Final Pot: t6465

butot shows 4 4 (four of a kind, Fours)

DelfiNchik_BesT shows Q Q (two pair, Queens and Fours)

Hero shows A A (a full house, Aces full of Fours)

butot wins t1890

butot wins t4575

Let´s call it Downswing...

I don´t wanna say too much, I´m just pissed.Graph says all. About 76 avg. BI. Now my PS graph looks horrible...

By the way I try to mix some 18´s in my sets just because there are more money in this games and I don´t have to wait this long until all tables are opened. Let´s hope for the best for the next week although I think there isn´t much space to get even worse. But I´ll remember to these words at the end of the week...